sarcasticsomeone:

Lord, show me your plan. I can’t handle it anymore. I’m ready for change.

been fighting for so long

i am still losing 

Depression: one word that can’t even begin to remotely describe what I am feeling, one word that can define you, one word that will eat you away little bits at a time.  Depression has become a part of me.  It’s a feeling of despair; all hope is lost.  No one can ever fix it.  Not even the host of this evil demonic parasite that eats so many away. 

Happiness: one word that I can tell you I never seem to feel anymore, one word that doesn’t define me, one word that doesn’t fill up my life with excitement and joy.  Happiness is something I don’t see any more.  It’s a feeling of greatness; but not for all.  Only the lucky ones get this privilege.  Even if you try your very hardest one cannot force themselves to be happy. 

Pretending: one word that gets me by, one word that I seem to turn to, one word that I have to enact every waking moment of every day.  Pretending is what gets me by.  It’s a feeling of false feelings.  Pretending gets so many of us by; without this mask we would have to reveal our true feelings.  I am the master at performing this. 

No one should have to ever have these emotions… here is to everyone who ever feels a moment of despair.  I promise you it does get better.